as written on; Wednesday, December 30, 2009
1:59 AM | 0 comments
after so long i just wanna rant this out
The problem with being by yourself too long is that you start to think a lot.
Well, I did, and it was somewhat bitter. I feel like writing so much right now.
I wanted to write a really long post but i’ll just get to the point.
Church is suffocating me. Yeah i know it sounds atrocious.
Of course i wanna go with the flow but somehow i guess it’s messing with my freedom with the commitment required. And yes it does suck that others are moving forward but i’m still at a standstill. Nothing hurts more than that. But in the end, i still believe there’s more to life than just going to church blindly. I can’t remember my purpose in coming here anymore. I’m sooo torn between my own thinking, my parent’s thinking and the church’s thinking.
Honestly, I don’t know if i can keep this up.
All these has made all three parties upset/ infuriated/ annoyed/ *insert negative emotion here* if i may say so.
Sigh. Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel.
It will only hurt you more when you know they can hear you but they cannot understand you. So so true.
jess
Well, I did, and it was somewhat bitter. I feel like writing so much right now.
I wanted to write a really long post but i’ll just get to the point.
Church is suffocating me. Yeah i know it sounds atrocious.
Of course i wanna go with the flow but somehow i guess it’s messing with my freedom with the commitment required. And yes it does suck that others are moving forward but i’m still at a standstill. Nothing hurts more than that. But in the end, i still believe there’s more to life than just going to church blindly. I can’t remember my purpose in coming here anymore. I’m sooo torn between my own thinking, my parent’s thinking and the church’s thinking.
Honestly, I don’t know if i can keep this up.
All these has made all three parties upset/ infuriated/ annoyed/ *insert negative emotion here* if i may say so.
Sigh. Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel.
It will only hurt you more when you know they can hear you but they cannot understand you. So so true.
jess
as written on; Monday, December 28, 2009
7:41 AM | 0 comments
random-ness
Still in my Christmas mood apparently.
It’s absolutely reasonable. After all there’s 12 days of Christmas, hello?. =p
My To-Do-List:
NOTHING.
Just my own thing.
My To-Do-List:
NOTHING.
Just my own thing.
Heh. I couldn’t help it.
Have i mentioned why my friends are utterly AWESOME!!? 
Hearts♥hearts♥hearts♥hearts♥hearts♥hearts
My dad has been a really generous atm this season 
I guess he wanted to boost up my spirits since i’ve been helping out alot 
Anyway what was i gonna say again?
............
Nevermind. I lost track.
OHHHH!!! I HATE DOTA!!!
I really, really, REALLY hate dota. The worst bf (Best Frens /BoyFren) snatcher.
Me: I miss you! Let’s go out lorr.
BF: Cannot. I have to dota.
-..- Excuses like that is the reason why we have middle fingers
P/s: it's been a week since i've switched from jaring to maxis broadband. I know, i know. I am so outdated. Because everybody went like “What? You're still using jaring?!?” It's not my fault my area so laopeh. =( But so far so good. I've never experience such fast speed ever before in my house. LOL. I had to wait like forever for everything to load. Phew. Finally. Those days are over!! Hallelujah. XD
jess
as written on; Friday, December 25, 2009
6:54 AM | 0 comments
It's christmas!! =)
Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.Labels: christmas
as written on; Wednesday, December 23, 2009
6:47 PM | 0 comments
Everything i love..
Christmas. Who doesn't love the Christmas season. 'Tis the season to be jolly. Nah, prove to be happy. LOL. I am always radiating with warmth and laughter during Christmas, somehow there's a sense of peace and happiness within me. Not to mention the decorated Christmas trees in preparation for a happy, school-free Christmas.
Ahhh. i ♥ Christmas. ^^
I found my lil bright sunshine to make me smile after my busy week.
Tada. My banana fren with his banana smile to light up my world.
Isn't he so adorable. His baby face is cuter than his newly transformed snoopy themed car. I stole his snoopy tissue box coz it's really pretty. =p I bet cl would have loved to all have all the snoopies in his car. XD
One of the Christmas performance we saw
My Domo-chan has made many frens along the way.
i ♥ Christmas!
After being squished like a sushi pack in the ktm, we reached his house around 8pm and had a lovely dinner with his family. Yes i was really happy although i didn't get my shake shake ice & the chance to watch avatar. *watched bodyguard assassin, don't watch*
Had a good night!after so long.
no thanks to my finals.the papers were alright la.weeeeee!
Jess
Labels: christmas
as written on; Sunday, December 20, 2009
4:30 AM | 0 comments
The greatest things towards christmas
Okay so this is the only me time i've got so far and it's been so long since i've updated. Somehow i do like writing when i have the time. I love to hear my own voice echo in my head i guess as i type out my thoughts. lol. Not to forget the pretty pictures i can put together. hehee. so here's some of the random events of the week.
My relatives from singapore came for a visit and we went to this western texas
restaurant located somewhere in kl for dinner. I can't remember the name though but it's not necessary coz i don't think i'll ever be going there again. It's not the food, it's the price. One flick of the first page and i was thinking of daddy's wallet. hahaha.
Here's my cute lil niece. So innocent. =)
Children are such a gift of heaven. I feel like i've already lost my innocence to the contaminated world. It was good to spend some time with someone that sees things with a different perspective. It was refreshing alright. 
So here's what i ate that nite: Oxtail tomato onion soup, and oxtail pasta with cheese.
So here's what i ate that nite: Oxtail tomato onion soup, and oxtail pasta with cheese.I have no idea why i was so obsessed for oxtail that nite. But anyway the food pics are so heavily edited coz it's super blur with my dam 2mega pixel camera that doesn't do good in dim lighted areas. =(
Believe me when i say don't under estimate the portion of this pasta. It's more than enough. I couldn't even finish.
Their toilet was pretty with hearts and colours. It feel more like England than Texas to be honest.
The walls were painted blue and red with some pictures of flowers at the back. This flower has just turned into my cute white hair ribbon. XD
Overall the atmosphere was great and i would have liked to have more pictures here but they are seriously not nice with my lao peh phone.
Me and my nephew bid our last goodbyes to the beef. =p
And here and there i've been treated a meal or two and received many gifts for an early christmas. So thank u all for all the pampering and efforts to keep me happy. =)Handmade "berani" rice. hahaha
Buttered biscuits
Okay this was brought over to my house by one of my dearest fren but was finished before i could touch it. okay fine i gave my parents permission to eat em coz the sight of cream and cheese just made me a lil sick. Don't know if it was becoz it has been a hectic week for me or wat but i think my diet has also been totally screwed up.
Next we celebrated Michelle's birthday
mich is as tall as the guys 0.O
Then the three of us went for a little "treasure" hunting
Guess what i got for Bruce ^^
Happy holidays everyone =)
Buttered biscuits
And the oh so cutest chocolate i've ever received. Mini teddy bears.
I didn't have the heart to eat em.
But when i finally came to my senses and took a bite out at it's head..
Urrkk.. Never judge a teddy bear by it's looks.
Then there was this wonderful banana cake that tasted even better than my mum's homecooked banana cake. lol. She kept insisting hers tasted better.
Okay this was brought over to my house by one of my dearest fren but was finished before i could touch it. okay fine i gave my parents permission to eat em coz the sight of cream and cheese just made me a lil sick. Don't know if it was becoz it has been a hectic week for me or wat but i think my diet has also been totally screwed up. 
Next we celebrated Michelle's birthday
mich is as tall as the guys 0.O
Then the three of us went for a little "treasure" hunting
Guess what i got for Bruce ^^
Happy holidays everyone =)Jess
Labels: christmas
as written on; Saturday, December 19, 2009
8:16 AM | 0 comments
