as written on; Wednesday, December 30, 2009
1:59 AM | 0 comments
after so long i just wanna rant this out
The problem with being by yourself too long is that you start to think a lot.
Well, I did, and it was somewhat bitter. I feel like writing so much right now.
I wanted to write a really long post but i’ll just get to the point.
Church is suffocating me. Yeah i know it sounds atrocious.
Of course i wanna go with the flow but somehow i guess it’s messing with my freedom with the commitment required. And yes it does suck that others are moving forward but i’m still at a standstill. Nothing hurts more than that. But in the end, i still believe there’s more to life than just going to church blindly. I can’t remember my purpose in coming here anymore. I’m sooo torn between my own thinking, my parent’s thinking and the church’s thinking.
Honestly, I don’t know if i can keep this up.
All these has made all three parties upset/ infuriated/ annoyed/ *insert negative emotion here* if i may say so.
Sigh. Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel.
It will only hurt you more when you know they can hear you but they cannot understand you. So so true.
jess
Well, I did, and it was somewhat bitter. I feel like writing so much right now.
I wanted to write a really long post but i’ll just get to the point.
Church is suffocating me. Yeah i know it sounds atrocious.
Of course i wanna go with the flow but somehow i guess it’s messing with my freedom with the commitment required. And yes it does suck that others are moving forward but i’m still at a standstill. Nothing hurts more than that. But in the end, i still believe there’s more to life than just going to church blindly. I can’t remember my purpose in coming here anymore. I’m sooo torn between my own thinking, my parent’s thinking and the church’s thinking.
Honestly, I don’t know if i can keep this up.
All these has made all three parties upset/ infuriated/ annoyed/ *insert negative emotion here* if i may say so.
Sigh. Sometimes it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel.
It will only hurt you more when you know they can hear you but they cannot understand you. So so true.
jess
