as written on; Saturday, February 16, 2008
7:05 AM | 0 comments
YOU who is reading
I'm in a bad mood rite now.
It's nearly 4am.
SO?! I AM EMO-ING MY HEART OUT.
I can't sleep!!!
All because i drank ice blended cappucino!!
sheeshh.
And i'm in the middle of having flu & sore throat.
Inilah akibatnya tak minum byk air.
zZzzZzzZz
I've been thinkin as i looked through our pictures..
This following post will be "specially" dedicated to "some ppl".
I guess "u" who is reading this would know who u r.
Relationships.
It's either boy sees girl, boy likes girl, boy pikats girl.
Same olds, same olds. vice versa.
Then when u're finally together, all sorts of problems surfaces.
Dad finds out, Mum opposes, Everyone is against u.
Then, that's when there's little time for everything.
u won't hang up on him just yet. U wanna hold on.
Yes, i know u might just have an emotional breakdown anytime now.
But then, have u ever noticed this?
Trust is slowly slipping away.
We are like strangers nowadays.
I can't even talk to u fer 10 minutes without u appearing busy all the time.
Missed Gatherings. Canceled Appointments.
And u can't even spend a single minute to reply my sms?
Seriously, sometimes, it can hurt so bad.
I just didn't want to say anything.
That's how I lost a few friends.
Because they said they needed time.
"There's always next time". Kononnya.
They always lied.
That "next time" never came.
It was most probably one of the most regretful experience in my life.
Yes, i do blame myself sometimes.
For being so egoistic to let them go.
sO help me if i ever give up on u.
Saya tulis ni specially to you ni orang because I want you to understand, open your eyes.
To show u what u're missing.
Don't be afraid to Love but be afraid to Lose the friends you love.
We've been tight pretty long. But the knots are slowly getting loose.
I've heard your reasons. Excusable ones.
But as time passes, those reasons always seem ever lasting.
FYI, i can't even reach u to know what's happening to u.
Honestly, i think u need to sort things up.
I just feel so dizzy, hearing the same problems over & over & over again.
The solution? you know the answer yourself.
I mean. Hello?
You're the one whose in the relationship,
how the hell would others know what to do?!
I'm sorry if i am straight forward but u know that's just how i am.
And this is most certainly how i feel rite now.
give me a nudge in msn after u read this.
I dah penat betul.
Nak pegi tidur lar.
Really emotional,
Jess
